WISHING/

"Be careful what you wish for, you might actually get it"

Of course everyone is familiar with that phrase, and I'm sure we all have experienced it one time or the other. It's a funny feeling really. You map out your life from point A to Z and feeling despondent as you reach the next letter. My very good friend, Mr. Pecker, could attribute this to the fact that I am a "journey person" as opposed to a "destination person". Journey people enjoy the ride more than actually getting off. Unlike destination people, we're not really particular about where we go either.

This could explain the restlessness in me to get moving despite the fact that I am where I want to be. Maybe the upcoming Advertising Congress is just giving me the heebeejeebees.
Being the premiere ocassion to recognize talented creatives, I feel this pressure to win something. I guess every young ambitious creative is feeling it too. But how can we be sure that winning will make us happy?

I have this absolutely stupid fear that if I do win something, it will mean nothing. I see myself getting up on that stage to accept the award. I am blinded by lights, deafened by applause... but as I'm standing there I feel a creeping deep inside, it's a hollow icy emptiness. It's really weird. So to add to the stupid visions, I posed a strange hypothetical dilemma to myself earlier. I asked myself what I would rather be, "a sad winner or a happy loser?"

Until now, I cannot answer that question so I've devised a foolproof plan come ad cong. I'm going to get rip-roaring drunk before the awarding, so no matter what happens... I just won't remember. I'll be the forgetful drunk.

In all honesty though, I love the creative process and I love working on something I believe in.
No matter what, I wish that in the next couple of months I will make more opportunities to do what I love.